tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6774206068041872422024-03-05T23:39:43.382-05:00My Dad is PapAmore'Our "Papa" Odee Lenderink ~ Forever Our Amore' AML, Acute Myeloid Leukemia, 71 years old, Mylotarg, Palliative Care, Faith, Grief, Healing, Cancer, Fatherless, Missing Dad, Grand Haven, Sara HuizengaAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12315837579262893019noreply@blogger.comBlogger233125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-677420606804187242.post-3730937110812322014-03-12T19:56:00.001-04:002014-03-12T19:56:58.398-04:00Ari the "Cry Kidder"<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="344" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/yGbXCt2pbic" width="459"></iframe>)<br />
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For PapAmore', Arend 'Odee' Lenderinkhttp://papamore.blogspot.comAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-677420606804187242.post-76932372538927781312014-03-11T11:42:00.000-04:002014-03-11T11:42:33.360-04:00Ari Orange Wagasky is my Son Forever and AlwaysI have decided to reclaim my son from grief, loss and pain. Before this little boy blessed anyone else here on earth - I got to carry him inside of me for the 9 months prior.
My entire being was formed and created to carry my child with me forever - anything anyone else thinks, feels and desires regarding our Ari Orange now is void.
*I trump any thoughts from anyone else - because I am Ari's Mama.*
I have every right in the universe and above to speak, share about, wallpaper our entire house with his photo and megaphone his name to the world - now - then and always.
He is the gift from God specifically given to his father and I. We chose his name and we also choose how Ari will be carried now - and our choice, affirmed by our Father above, is to carry ARI actively, visibly, audibly and presently forever.
No one else's opinion on our son matters - no one can nor ever could silence the bright beaming Hope of Heaven so radiantly beaming from the ALIVE AND WITH JESUS forever presence of our little man.
Thank you Jesus for so richly forever blessing my entire being with Ari Orange - ♥♥
I will never move on from our boy - I will live - I will have joy and I will carry him WITH ME always and forever.
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To Ari Orange Wagasky - my son always and forever and For PapAmore', Arend 'Odee' Lenderink
http://papamore.blogspot.comAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-677420606804187242.post-30831170146968857102014-03-07T17:58:00.001-05:002014-03-07T17:58:45.666-05:00Heading Home to Heaven ~ Ari Wagasky - Orange shoes<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="270" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/d-OzYlsyOSE" width="480"></iframe>Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-677420606804187242.post-40099636063802893142014-03-06T20:41:00.001-05:002014-03-06T20:41:12.470-05:00arend jack thomas: Arend 'Ari' and Nana<a href="http://ariwagasky.blogspot.com/2014/03/arend-ari-and-nana.html?spref=bl">arend jack thomas: Arend 'Ari' and Nana</a>: I could talk about Ari stories forever - his lovable, adventurous, hilarious, smart and one of a kind self provided us with many memories...Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12315837579262893019noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-677420606804187242.post-1706856325665506992012-12-11T12:53:00.000-05:002012-12-11T12:54:29.102-05:00Recent Promising Treatment for Late-Stage AML (Acute Myelogenous Leukemia)<h2>
<a href="http://www.scientificamerican.com/article.cfm?id=what-is-acute-myelogenous-leukemia">Are there any promising treatments in late-stage testing?</a></h2>
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: georgia, times, serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 24px;">Yes, there are several drugs being investigated in phase II and phase III trials. We currently have a phase III trial open with a drug called </span><a href="http://www.news-medical.net/news/20120303/Rigosertib-drug-shows-promise-against-advanced-pancreatic-cancer.aspx" style="background-color: white; border: 0px; color: #19437c; font-family: georgia, times, serif; line-height: 24px; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><b><span style="font-size: x-large;">rigosertib</span></b></a><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: georgia, times, serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 24px;"> for patients who have failed prior treatment with azacitidine or decitabine, which are known as demethylating agents. The proposed mechanism of action for these drugs is that they alter gene expression profiles in the cancer cells and increase their susceptibility to death. Rigosertib is a cell cycle inhibitor and would prevent the cancer cells from growing and induce direct damage to the cancer cells, causing their death.</span><br />
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An angel came and called your name</div>
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Your place was ready in Heaven, far above . . .</div>
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And you had to leave behind,</div>
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all though you dearly loved</div>
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You had so much to live for, you had so much to do . . .</div>
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It still seemed impossible, that God was taking you.</div>
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And though your life on earth is past,</div>
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n Heaven it starts anew</div>
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You'll live for all eternity, just as God has promised you.</div>
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And though you've walked through Heaven's gate</div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12315837579262893019noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-677420606804187242.post-1761644546329717612012-09-12T11:51:00.000-04:002012-12-11T11:52:05.943-05:00How to Know the End is Near<br />
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Just as doctors cannot pinpoint the precise day when a baby will be born, they cannot predict the exact day or hour when you or your loved one will die. </div>
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You might need reassurance that it is simply not always possible to know when death is near. Some illnesses, for example, make prediction difficult. However, many illnesses have a few hours or a few days when it is evident that death is close. </div>
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The person dying usually is no longer eating or drinking, except perhaps a few sips of liquid now and again. The person may be sleepy or confused most of the time and is usually in bed. If the person is dying from cancer or a progressive failure of an organ, he or she will usually have lost a substantial amount of weight. If life support is being stopped, the physician should be able to tell you what to watch for to estimate about how long it will be before death.</div>
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Many people near death have cool hands and feet and a persistent purplish discoloration in the parts of the body resting on the bed. Many also will have uneven breathing, sometimes stopping for many seconds and other times breathing quickly. This kind of breathing and discoloration can persist for a few days or may be seen within hours of death.</div>
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Some people have some jerking motions or even seizures near death. As disturbing as it may be for you to watch this happen, your loved one will probably not be aware of it. Involuntary motions usually do not need treatment and do not cause problems for the patient. Seizures can often be treated with rectal medications to be sure that they are not distressing to the patient or family.</div>
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If the person has been taking opioids, these will be continued because stopping such medications abruptly can lead to uncomfortable symptoms. If the person is no longer able to swallow, opioids can be given by suppository, injection, skin patch, subcutaneous infusion, or IV.</div>
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Probably half of patients develop very noisy breathing near death, sometimes called a "death rattle." This is the result of physical changes and does not cause the person to feel as though she is struggling to breathe. In fact, most dying patients are not aware of this noisy breathing. However, if family or caregivers find it unnerving, the doctor or nurse can help reduce the noisy sound, either by giving medication or repositioning the dying person in bed.</div>
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<li><a href="http://www.growthhouse.org/mortals/mor13101.html">Overview of events near death</a></li>
<li><a href="http://www.growthhouse.org/mortals/mor13103.html">What to do when death is close</a></li>
<li><a href="http://www.growthhouse.org/mortals/mor13104.html">About being there at the moment of death</a></li>
<li><a href="http://www.growthhouse.org/mortals/mor13105.html">How to determine if the person has died</a></li>
<li><a href="http://www.growthhouse.org/mortals/mor13106.html">Decisions and activities after death</a></li>
<li><a href="http://www.growthhouse.org/mortals/mor13107.html">Decisions about autopsies</a></li>
<li><a href="http://www.growthhouse.org/mortals/mor13108.html">Estates and wills</a></li>
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I listened to a sermon by Joel Osteen this past Sunday - he said that if we truly believe and pray in faith God will hear our calls and answer them accordingly ...<br />
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Good sermon, but just can't help but wondering ...<br />
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Why did the many prayers going out to heal you go unanswered, Papa?<br />
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I take issue with being made to feel like we didn't believe nor pray ENOUGH - because that's simply and completely not at all true.<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12315837579262893019noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-677420606804187242.post-2796273024024461482012-06-14T04:09:00.003-04:002012-06-14T04:09:58.282-04:00I Will Not Say Goodbye<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
You never really left - right, Papa? <3<br />
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As you know, I wasn't too hot on you coming into my Mom and I's little cocoon life after we lost my Dad Jack Huizenga at age of mine -thirteen. <br />
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It had been barely a year since my Dad Jack had died when you and my Mom met - and at that time, to me, you represented both letting go of and betraying my Dad who had recently died.<br />
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Isn't it ironic ... at first I wanted nothing at all to do with you in our lives and am now truly broken hearted without you here.<br />
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Thanks for sharing with me (reassuring me) during that last talk on my birthday about how you never were even fully aware of the extent of my detest of you then. You said that no matter what, I was still always respectful to you - and for that fact, you had sent many prayers of thanks to my Dad before you that I'd lost.<br />
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Yet still ... at times, not often - I wonder ... would it be easier now to have lost you to that damn vicious AML cancer if I'd never loved you to begin with to the extent I did? You became to me nothing less and everything more than a real Dad - I just loved have you as my "Daddy", Papa ...<br />
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But maybe if I'd have kept resenting you it'd be a bit easier to just breathe now that you're gone.<br />
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Papa, being a step-parent is such hard work - I'm trying so hard, Papa ... but still, even with my own real life "experience" as a step-child - they're so far from loving me like I loved and will always love you.<br />
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I could really use you here, on earth, with us right now, Papa ... I miss you so much - still - everyday. I'm so proud to have you as my Dad - it hurts so much to not be able to "show you off" to these new loves in my life now.<br />
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I still don't get it, Papa - I'm sorry and I do try - but I just can't even an iota of an amount understand why God took you too early from us as He did.<br />
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Finally I had grown to love and adore you as my forever own "Daddy" .... to only have you die and "leave me" too ...<br />
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I REALLY REALLY miss having a Dad, Papa ... I to the depth of my soul especially miss you.<br />
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Please send me a sign again soon - please hug me as only you could and comfort my own step-parenting pain.<br />
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I hate this, Papa .... I hate that you're gone ....<br />
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But as I continue to keep looking around for you ... I'm more and more forced to faced the reality that you're gone.<br />
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And STILL - I'm NOT okay with that, Papa ...<br />
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I love you, Dad.<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: red; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;"><b>MEMORIES OF YOU</b></span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">Not long ago you left me,</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">I didn't know what I would do,</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">But after crying, I thought,</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">Of the memories I have of you.</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">Memories keep me alive,</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">Memories keep me sane,</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">Sometimes I forget you died,</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">Sometimes it is etched in my brain.</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">If I died now I would join you,</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">But I know I have to wait,</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">Nothing is that simple,</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">I would rather rely on fate.</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">Maybe, if I hold on for a while,</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">I will overcome my fears,</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">Holding on will make seeing you again special,</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">It will be worth all of the tears.</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">I believe that you are in heaven now,</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">And I want to join you someday,</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">I am trying to live my life like you lived yours,</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">That's all I ever pray.</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">No one can come between us now,</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">I will just have to wait and see,</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">No one misses you more than I do,</span><br style="background-color: white; 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<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-uqzFg_GnR_4/T2VopQ71fMI/AAAAAAAAFQY/ed2uQ1fDiDk/s1600/IMG_9845.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-uqzFg_GnR_4/T2VopQ71fMI/AAAAAAAAFQY/ed2uQ1fDiDk/s400/IMG_9845.JPG" width="247" /></a><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">Sometimes the greatest people on earth </span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">Are the ones who are taken away.</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">The greatest smiles, the greatest hearts, </span><br style="background-color: white; 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font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">And curse this nightmare come true. </span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">Sometimes encouraging words are exchanged, </span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">And most of the time we shed tears, </span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">And we look on in awe of the greatest strength </span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">Attempting to beat all our fears. </span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">And when you last hugged your greatest hug,</span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">You knew it might be your last. </span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">But you threw out the thought and closed your eyes, </span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">Because it "can't be happening this fast." </span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">When you come to the end of this greatest fight, </span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">You'll see this person who cared. </span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">And you'll know he's forgiven you for all the bad times, </span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">And loves you for all that you've shared. </span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small; text-align: -webkit-auto;">It seems sometimes the greatest people on earth </span><br style="background-color: white; font-family: Arial; font-size: small; text-align: -webkit-auto;" /><span style="background-color: white; 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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">3 years today since our Papa went to heaven - often seems like yesterday = because I know he's still here in many ways with us ... See you in heaven, Papa ... xoxo</span>
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Arend Jack Thomas (I know He and he and he and he are watching over him ;)</div>
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As much as I've open up my entire heart and nearly shared each of my grief walk's feelings with all of you here, reading <a href="http://papamore.blogspot.com/">PapAmore </a>... to that same extent ... I have purposely left out much of my life's story.<br />
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Or such has been, for the most part, my own personal experience.</div>
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There's something I feel like I should share here ... because I can no longer ignore what I feel is PapAmore's encouragement to do so.<br />
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But it is so hard to do so ... to have someone else read, and thus decide to trust them with, even the mere general words I've above written here ... terrify every part of me.<br />
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But as PapAmore bestowed upon myself so much of the strength and encouragement to push through then, I know he'll also help me continue to push through now too.<br />
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But ...... I'm not sure how to share this, I don't even know how nor where to start ... for so long bottling this thing of which I speak up seemed to be the only to live through and with it.<br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">There was a day ... when my heart stopped singing<br />There was a time ... when my inner light extinguished<br />This was the day the hope within my soul truly burned out.</span></blockquote>
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One of my fears is that however I write this, it will be wrong ... and however I say this, it will come across wrong. If I talk too much about me while sharing my experience ... surely I'll come across as self-centered. If I say too much about the devastation this life event has caused ... surely I'll come across as damaged for life, a redeeming worthless cause. If I don't say enough ... surely I'll be sugar counting things and if I say too much ... surely I'll seem still obsessed with it all.<br />
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Which leaves me with ... either taking another 18 years trying to figure out the best way to share my story ... or ... to just let my inner life-script just spill out ...<br />
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It's coming up on eighteen years since I've last spoken with my best friend, Ben. <br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12315837579262893019noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-677420606804187242.post-5536499217646037952011-08-15T14:39:00.001-04:002011-08-15T14:39:25.090-04:00Parenting Lesson by Papa - Never Give UpPapa, I'm thankful for so many things about you. Most of all for your spiritual guidance which was always evident in every aspect of your parenting.
You've left us with such an awesome legacy and parental example. Of which both blesses and at times overwhelms me as your child.
Blessed by the guide you've given as to what to do yet overwhelmed at times by feeling like I'll in reality never fully be able to live up to it ... ;)
To be honest, I've personally found parenting to often be that time of your life when you're assumed to be at a place of life knowledge where you now know the most but personally have come to find out that in reality you've reached the lifepoint where you know the least. :S
But, I'll keep trying - thanks too for teaching me how to never give up - I use that one a lot. xoxoxoxo
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12315837579262893019noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-677420606804187242.post-51193162929217966592011-07-22T16:16:00.001-04:002011-07-22T16:16:52.621-04:00The Whisper of Hope I Long to HearI still hear you whisper His hope into my ear ... you never really left us, you never really will ...<br />
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And while I slowly inch my way towards somewhat being able to minutely understand His plan ... my heart still misses our Papa, my thoughts at times still pester me with what ifs and if only.<br />
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I miss your laugh, I miss your teasing, your goofy just like me. Our inside jokes and endless banter, the dumb humor that often only we could see.<br />
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I miss the walks, your midafternoon "pop-ins". I miss having sparkling clean windows, recently fresh coats of paint, an impeccably swept front porch and neatly edged yard.<br />
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I miss your oil change reminders (oh my word, I think I'm past due), your put it in perspective talks.<br />
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I so painfully much miss the way you loved and cared for my girls ... that's what hurts the most of all ... that's what I know I'll never get - why were they jipped out of so many years with you? How ever can I even begin to pass on to them all that you have given to me?<br />
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Please whisper His hope to me again, Papa?<br />
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I miss life without you missing.<br />
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Whispering Hope lyrics<br />
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Soft as the voice of an angel<br />
Breathing a lesson unheard<br />
Hope with a gentle persuasion<br />
Whispers a comforting word<br />
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Wait till the darkness is over<br />
Wait till the tempest is done<br />
Hope for the sunshine tomorrow<br />
After the shower is gone<br />
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Whispering hope<br />
Oh, how welcome, thy voice<br />
Making my heart<br />
In its sorrow rejoice<br />
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If in the dusk of the twilight<br />
Dimmed be the region afar<br />
Willn't deepening darkness<br />
Brighten the glimmering star<br />
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Then when the night is upon us<br />
Why should the heart sink away?<br />
When the dark midnight is over<br />
Watch for the breaking of day<br />
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Whispering hope,<br />
Oh, how welcome, thy voice<br />
Making my heart<br />
In its sorrow rejoice<br />
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Whispering hope,<br />
Oh, how welcome, thy voice<br />
Making my heart<br />
In its sorrow rejoice<br />
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(Thank Donald Ross for the reminder of the hope whispered from Him ... praying with that hope that your missing son will soon be found - http://findjesseross.com)<br />
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Thanks for pointing us towards Him ... see you in heaven, Papa ... xoxoxoxo <br />
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General Questions<br />
What type of AML do I have? What does it mean to have this variant of the disease?<br />
Do you know how quickly it is likely to progress?<br />
Can I enroll in a clinical trial? How would this affect the quality of my treatment?<br />
What is the recommended treatment for my stage of AML?<br />
If I don't have insurance coverage, what are my options?<br />
Which center would be able to provide the best treatment for my leukemia?<br />
Are there any other options besides a bone marrow transplant?<br />
When should I start treatment?<br />
If I have this treatment, what are my chances of survival?<br />
If I have treatment, will my AML return?<br />
What are the results of the cytogenetic testing?<br />
What are the results of the immunophenotyping?<br />
What can I do to lower my risk of infection during chemotherapy?<br />
Can the leukemia spread once I am on chemotherapy?<br />
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After Induction Therapy<br />
Are blasts present?<br />
Do I have any infections?<br />
What is my prognosis? Are there any lifestyle changes I can make to improve my prognosis?<br />
Are blood counts returning to normal levels?<br />
Has complete remission been achieved?<br />
Why do I need more treatment after I achieve remission?<br />
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For Chemotherapy<br />
What are the names of the drugs that will be used?<br />
How many treatments will I need? Can I go home afterwards?<br />
What will I feel like after my treatments? Work? Children?<br />
What are the possible side effects of these treatments? Will my hair fall out? Will I be nauseous? Will I be exhausted? Will I get mouth sores?<br />
Is there anything I can do to lessen the side effects?<br />
If I am taking chemotherapy, can I eat all kinds of foods?<br />
Will chemotherapy affect my sex life?<br />
Will chemotherapy affect my chances of getting pregnant and having a normal baby? OR <br />
Will chemotherapy affect my chances of fathering a child?<br />
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http://www.amlalliance.com/questions-to-ask-about-aml.html<br />
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