Saturday, January 24, 2009

Arend 'Odee''s Update by Wanda Lenderink


THE WORD FOR TODAY...."I AM STILL ALIVE....NOW, YOU KEEP LIVING! "

Posted 2 days ago

AS THE MANY CLOCKS IN OUR HOUSE ,THE CLOCKS THAT ODEE SO FAITHFULLY KEPT WORKING...TICKED AWAY REACHING FOR A NEW YEAR...OUR LOVING ODEE GATHERED US AROUND HIM...THE EYES OF EACH ONE OF US INTENSILY FOCUSED ON THE MAN WE LOVED...OUR HEARTS WERE SO TRANSPARENT ...OF THE NEED FOR MORE TIME..

AS THE TICKING CONTINUED ...WITH COMPASSION ODEE ACKNOWLEDGED THE DISAPPOINTMENT OF NO REMISSION....LESS TIME HE REMINDED US ...WE STILL HAVE HOPE...HOPE FOR A MIRACLE...OUR TIME WAS IN OUR LORDS HANDS ...THE LEUKEMIA WAS NOT THE KEEPER OF THE CLOCKS...HE TOLD US OF HIS LOVE FOR US...HIS NEED FOR MORE TIME WITH US.....THANKING US FOR OUR LOVE...

AS THE TICKING CONTINUED ..HIS VOICE BETRAYED THE SURRENDER OF HIS HEART..."BUT IF GODS SAYS... "IT IS TIME"..THEN I ,MUST LEAVE...I WILL ALWAYS BE IN YOUR HEART...DON'T THINK FOR ONE MINUTE THAT I WILL LEAVE YOU...IN FACT ,I WILL HAVE A BETTER PERSPECTIVE AND I WILL BE RELENTLESS...I WILL NEVER STOP BUGGING YOU ...BECAUSE I WANT TO SEE YOU ALL IN HEAVEN SOMEDAY...I KNOW YOU WILL BE SAD AND THERE WILL BE TEARS..BUT YOU MUST NOT LIVE THAT WAY...LOOK, I'M STILL ALIVE SO YOU MUST KEEP ON LIVING...AND OUR TEARS FLOWED AS THE SECONDS TICKED ON...AND AS ONLY THE MAN WE LOVED COULD DO ..HE POINTED HIS FINGER AT ALL OF US ..."ALRIGHT NOW, NO MORE CRYING"...

AS TIME TICKED ON...A NEW YEAR..WE SPENT OUR TIME ..LOOKING FOR MORE HOPE..WATCHING THE LEUKEMIA INVADE..DESPERATE FOR MORE TIME ..BEGGING GOD ..REMINDING HIM OF YOU PRECIOUS PEOPLE PRAYING ...PRAYING WHEN OUR HEARTS WERE SO WEARY..AS WE MET WITH THE DOCTOR ..WE ASKED HOW MUCH TIME ?..."WEEKS TO SIX MONTHS"...OUR HEARTS ONLY HEARD SIX MONTHS ..MAYBE TIME FOR A NEW TREATMENT ..

THE LAST THREE DAYS...MORE FAMILY CAME JUST WANTING TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH THEIR DAD AND GRANDPA...SISTERS AND BROTHERS CAME ..SOME STILL COMING..AS THE HOURS AND MINUTES TICKED ON...NEW HOPE CAME ...AN APPOINTMENT WITH A RESEARCH SPECIALIST IN CHICAGO ...EVEN A JET MADE AVAILABLE TO FLY HIM DOWN THERE...

AS TIME TICKED ON ..AND IT WAS JUST HIM AND ME...CLOSE TO EACH OTHER ..WE BORE OUR SOULS WE TALKED OF THE MIRACLE THAT GOD HAD PLACED US TOGETHER...WE TALKED OF OUR LOVE...WE WERE SO THANKFUL..BUT ..PLEASE LORD MORE!!!! WE TRIED TO TALK OF THE "IF'S" ...BUT IT WAS SO PAINFUL....WE WOULD FIND OURSELVES STARING AT EACH OTHER ..AS IF IT MIGHT BE OUR LAST LOOK..

NEVER KNOWING THAT AS THE CLOCKS TICKED ON ..ALL OF HEAVEN WAS PREPARING FOR THAT MOMENT...TO US IT CAME AS SURPRISED ...WE THOUGHT WE STILL HAD MORE TIME ....MAYBE HOPE...BUT AS WE GATHERED AROUND HIS BED...HIS BREATHING SO DIFFICULT HIS EYES A PICTURE OF HIS SOUL ...I REMEMBERED HIS WORDS...IF THE TIME COMES ..."YOU HAVE TO BE READY TO LET ME GO "...I BEGGED HIM TO UNDERSTAND...HOW COULD I DO THAT??....LOVINGLY, HE TOLD ME WHEN THAT TIME COMES ...HE WOULD LET ME KNOW...AND ON THAT DAY AS TIME STOOD STILL...HIS EYES TOLD ME IT WAS TIME ..MY LOVE LET HIM GO ... AND THROUGH OUR TEARS ..WE REMEMBERED HIS WORDS ...I'M STILL ALIVE....[IN HEAVEN]...SO KEEP ON LIVING...

PRAY FOR US .....WE KNOW OUR LORD WILL BE WITH US....AND WILL MEND OUR BROKEN HEARTS...BUT ...HOW WE MISS THE MAN WE LOVED....AND THE CLOCKS KEEP ON TICKING ...EVEN THOUGH OUR WORLD HAS STOPPED ...

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