Friday, January 2, 2009

I'm Not Giving Up On You

When I was young, at the peak of awkward, flubbing through my pre-pubescent, "only a Mother could love" days...I met you.

And, I imagine that...
I wasn't that much to look at

Surely I wasn't that interesting to be around

Definitely I couldn't have been uplifting to listen to

Basically, Me
When I met You 

Was all Around
Most of all
Quite determined 
To clearly be
 
Not in the least bit nice

Specifically
To you...

I didn't want you to love me
didn't want you to care
wanted you to leave me
really didn't want you anywhere
that I was
at all

And You
Stubborn You

You Loved Me Still

You Loved My Ugly
Loved My Hate
Loved Me Silly
No Matter What

You always told me
Even then

I'll never leave you
No matter what

"I'm not Giving Up on You."

And so...

Just so you know...

I heard you then, I hear you now...

I listened and I learned

Learned what real love was
Learned what was true
Learned to endure
To believe
To be true
Learned what to fight for
Learned when to give in

All this
And more
I learned

From You

And now
This moment
This time
This now

Because you taught me well

I boldly stand
I have no doubt
I know now what to do

I hear God's voice
I feel His Peace
I gratefully answer His call

And that is why
I shout out loud

I'M NOT GIVING UP ON YOU!

It's not over
Your story is not done
There's more left to be told

Our God of Miracles
Is not Impressed
By lazy sloths on the ground

If we're to witness
The end result
Of our brazen prayers

Then we must all
Join hands
Unite
Show Him
That we Care

That we will actively
Hold God's hand
Not stand idly by

We will do
What can be done

We will follow
Our God's lead
We'll join his triumphant shout

When we stand
And actively show that

WE AREN'T GIVING UP ON YOU!


3 comments:

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31 Comments
Comment by SHERYL BURT 1 day ago
Delete Comment HOW BEAUTIFUL!!! YOU ARE IN MY PRAYERS DAILY!
Comment by Maureen 1 day ago
Delete Comment Spend time with your Dad. Loving, laughing and creating more memories will be the best support you can give him and yourself.

Prayers,

Maureen
Comment by Pepsi 1 day ago
Delete Comment Oh....How very valuable. My heart was broken by I dont know what 's reason and what am I wring, but now I just cry more and your Dad story teaching my heart, my soul and healing my sadness and thanks God for your share, now I feel love someone hurt me more and more and forgive him and just understand life, and your family, your Dad and you will be in my prayers every time.

My love for him will never fail again, as more as passible forever.

Thank you,

God blesses.

Thai woman
Comment by Pepsi 1 day ago
Delete Comment Give time for your Dad more, spent time , give warm, and do everything you can do please, I will do the same for my beloved too even now He will leave me alone.

I have no reason for stop love him.

Thank you, Praise Lord.
Comment by Maggie's Rose 1 day ago
Delete Comment Thank You for your kind comments and prayers, I cherish them and all of you...

I believe God is going to perform a Miracle, I don't think my Dad is going to leave us yet...I'm not going to give up yet...

Comment by Jan Smolinski 1 day ago
Delete Comment Dear Maggie,
Never give up, God does perform miracles, but Maggie sometimes God wants an angel in heaven. Please pray and God will give you the srength to accept the road ahead of you. I along with many others are praying for your dad he may pull through, only God knows.
Your dad knows how much you love him. Maggie we are all here to support you.
You have a warm heart, filled with much love, you know the meaning of life. May God bless you, your dad and family.
My prayers,
Always Hope,
Jan
www.justice4billy.com
Comment by Delilah 1 day ago
Delete Comment Maggs....please post as many of your pictures of Odee as you can. I ask that so everyone can see what I have seen these past long months. God shines through this man, not only to his family but to everyone who has said a prayer for him. He is a beacon, along with your Mom, to show the world how the faithful truly feel

If you or your mom would publish all of the writings she has done on the Care Pages, it would also give everyone an insight into how God has blessed these two as a perfect couple in love forever.

We may not get the results WE want, but God has a plan and it will be Perfect. Odee is a true man of God and it shows through his eyes everytime he is looking at your mom, your girls and you. That man knows true love from the source. I have never met him, but somehow he has managed to touch, not only my heart, but many, many others out here that have never met him either. I don't know why that is, but I'm not going to question it either.

I'm here for you always, my grasshopper........
Comment by Sue Ollis 1 day ago
Delete Comment Dear Maggie I sent you a message private but I also want it noted that I join with all here to say I am with you here in heart and spirit. may that beautiful man we see pictured here stay with us for many years yet. Hes not leaving yet...so hang on and cherish and love and remember to ENJOY the now live in the moment. hugs Michelle
Comment by Sue Ollis 1 day ago
Delete Comment ps Im know as Michelle rather than Sue by my husband and family Ive adopted my middle name in recent years lol long story ..xo just so you knew who on earth Michelle is posting under Sue birth name.
Comment by Jim Harnage 1 day ago
Delete Comment We are agreeing with you in prayer today. We love you, your father and we support you all.
Through all of the emotions you feel God will shine forth with truth, support, understanding, and faith.
Father God in Jesus name we ask you to present your touch to our family;s father today who is also our spiritual brother in Christ. We believe with our friend and sister that you heal him. We pray for you to uncover other helps out there for we know that you minister through many vessels, the healing arts, and other talents. We also believe in miracles . For thine is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever which means it is in your power and your ability according to your will, In Jesus name.
In Jesus' name we ask. Amen
Jim

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Comment by Janell C. Bennett 1 day ago
Delete Comment I heard your pain. My husband of 34 years was diagnosed with Prostrate cancer three days before Christmas. He's a retied Marine and one of the quotes jarheads love to use is "Marines don't die they go to hell and take over." Well, I think your Dad's smile will take over your family and my Marine over take over hell but accept all the love his family has and it will make him stronger.
I think your Dad's so cool! Hug tuff, homegirl, hang tuff.
Comment by Cherry Simpson 1 day ago
Delete Comment Dearest Maggie,

Fight for him, because that's what a daughter does. I fought for my Pa and in the end God took him, but I don not regret fighting for him. I loved him with all of my heart and he knew that because I fought for him.

I loved your poem. You're a good daughter. I care about your Dad and will support him in prayer. God bless you, too, as you are laboring under a heavy burden as well.

May God who cares for the widow and the fatherless (Psalm 68:5) bring
about good medical care for your father.

Luv, Cherry

Cancer Treatment Centers AML Leukemia

L&L Society

M.D. Anderson

Mayo Clinic Clinical Trials
Comment by Delilah 1 day ago
Delete Comment Cherry, last night Sara and I were talking about all the different avenues to take, where to turn for information, and I swear, both of us at the same time said......'CHERRY'! Cherry will know....and here you are with the links! You amaze me, and it also amazes me how God ALWAYS puts out there what it is you need.....it may not be what you want, but it will always be what you need.
Comment by Reza Jou 1 day ago
Delete Comment Dear Maggie,
I know how difficult is to have your loved ones ill, specially during holidays. You and your Dad are in our daily prayers. Please don’t lose hope and never give up praying and asking God for resolution. I believe in miracle, physicians only express their opinion, God is the healer. I hope he gets well soon.
With Love
Reza Jou (missing Donna Jou’s dad)
WWW.DONNAJOU.COM
Comment by Justme 1 day ago
Delete Comment I am praying for you and your family Maggie, no matter what God has planned, know that you have our love and support always. Be with him as much as you can Maggie. I know the pain of losing a father and I will always regret that I didn't spend more time with him. Don't have that regret. I am praying for a miracle for your father and you. with much love, justme
Comment by Kurt 1 day ago
Delete Comment Miracels happen every day....I am living proof of that (long story). My prayers go out to your Father and your family.

Kurt
Comment by Maggie's Rose 1 day ago
Delete Comment My entire being is grateful to all of you, thank you for recognizing how precious he is, your thoughts, prayers and incredible insight comfort us beyond words...thank you...xoxoxoox
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Comment by Maggie's Rose 1 day ago
Delete Comment Janell, thank you for sharing about your husband, I will be keeping all of you in fervent prayer!

Please keep us updated! xoxoxoxoxo
Comment by Missing April Wiss's Mother 1 day ago
Delete Comment My good friend and family you will always be in my prayers. If any one knows the way you feel I do.My dad is in away that he could go any day and it is his heart.

As we say this prayer together Please god hear our words and give us the most time you can for our family to be together.Days we can sat back and ;ook at and smile .May your wishes be of good things and please for my friend and her dad to be happy.Let him be with her until you know she can be strong and give all the love to one another.In Gods name I prayer. Amen

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Comment by Angelbound 1 day ago
Delete Comment Sending prayers your way Maggie. hugs and love...
Comment by Angie 1 day ago
Delete Comment I can so relate to everything you have wrote here about your dad Maggie..I went throught the same things with Barry when he first came around and married my mother..I cried when I read what you wrote..For I had and still have the same feelings for Barry..Unfortunatly he gave up on me and chose a new life with his new wife..But anyway that is besides my point here...

Your dad still looks like he has so much life to live and so much more to give..I have faith that god will pull his miracles and that your dad is not done..You are absolutly right when you say YOU ARE NOT GIVING UP..Nobody should give up on the ones we love..God does not give up on us now does he..

I love you Maggie and YOU are a STRONG woman!!
Comment by Jesse 'Opie' Ross 1 day ago
Delete Comment We have a poster of Charlie Brown trying to kick the football before Lucy can pull it away. It says Never ever ever give up.
Comment by UNSOLVED HOMICIDES AND MISSING ADULTS 1 day ago
Delete Comment MAGGIE: I LOVE YOU. I KNOW WHAT HAVING TO DEAL WITH TERMINALLY ILL FAMILY IS LIKE. BOTH MY MOTHER AND FATHER DIED OF CANCER. THEY HAVE BEEN GONE SINCE 1992 MY FATHER AND 1994 MY MOTHER. PRAYERS ARE THE BEST THING IN THE WORLD. FOR PEACE AND UNDERTANDING, FOR LOVE, FOR CARE AND CONCERN, BUT THE BEST THING TO HELP YOUR FATHER THROUGH THIS IS YOUR LOVE. NOT CHANGING A THING EXCEPT TO LOVE THEM MORE THAN YOU POSSIBLEY CAN. TAKING THINGS ONES STEP AT A TIME. SMALL STEPS AND IN THE LONG RUN ACCEPTANCE OF WHAT IS HIS LIFE AND THE CELEBRATION OF HIS SOUL. I WANT YOU TO KNOW I WILL BE HERE FOR YOU NO MATTER WHAT YOU AND HE SHOULD NEED AND IF EITHER NEEDS SOMEONE TO WRITE TOO OR TALK TOO. I ALSO USED TO WORK IN THAT FIELD SO, I WILL MAKE MYSELF AVAILABLE TO YOU ALL. HUGS AND BLESSINGS AND MANY MANY ANGELS TO TAKE CARE OF YOUR FAMILY. HEALING IN HOWEVER YOU ALL MAY NEED IT. LOVE YOU. GWENNIE
Comment by Maggie's Rose 1 day ago
Delete Comment Wow, you all are so amazing, I am so incredibly touched and blessed...




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Comment by UNSOLVED HOMICIDES AND MISSING ADULTS 1 day ago
Delete Comment THIS MAKES ME SMILE AND TEAR AT THE SAME TIME. HOW ABSOLUTELY PRECIOUS IS THIS GIFT OF SUCH A WONDERFUL FATHER AND GRANDFATHER YOU ALL HAVE BEEN GIVEN. WHAT A BEAUTIFUL SOUL AND I CAN SEE HIM IN YOU AND IN HIS GRANDBABY...YOUR BEAUTIFUL MAGGIE SO IS HE AND SO IS THE PART OF HIM THAT EXISTS INSIDE YOU ALL. HUGS.
Comment by Lisa Seltenreich 1 day ago
Delete Comment Maggie, what wonderful pictures of you and your father. What a blessing to have a father. I grew up with a stepfather who was wonderful until the divorce and then learned he wasn't my father. Throughout life I have envied those who have wonderful fathers. I envy you in a good manner. As you know, I do not envy your father's hardship, nor do I envy the pain involved in your father's situation. I envy your smile when you speak of your father. God has blessed you and your family with this most wonderful man, a light in your life. I will pray that God blesses you and your family and your father, miracles are abound, its a new year for blessings!
Comment by Lorela 1 day ago
Delete Comment i feel for you. my prayers are with you and your family. hope lives, hope sees...
Comment by Maggie's Rose 6 hours ago
Delete Comment Your words here bless us all beyond whatever words I might be able to express...thank you...xoxoxo